Photo's

Photo's. The one thing that can hold a memory and 1000+ words in the one 6x4 frame (sometimes bigger..). When you flip through photo's it brings back memories of a time in your life when you were happy, sad, excited, tired, childish, stupid, smart, hippy and so much more. You see a photo and think what you were doing at that time, what was happening, who were you with, what was being said, then you start to think deeper and start thinking about maybe the relationships you have had and possibly still have with those in the picture, the job you had and every other thing starts to flood back unless it is something so bad you have pushed it back to the back of your mind, a time you have forgotten, a time that doesn't represent any part of who you are now.

I think photo's are the one thing that people can hide behind, they can smile and act like they are happy because the picture doesn't show the cuts they have on their wrist, they can look like they don't know somebody is taking the picture of them but really be thinking that as soon as the picture is taken they are going to wrestle the photographer to the ground. But in saying that, can someone really hide? I mean, if you went for a job interview to be a police officer when you were 40 and the person holding the interview had done some digging and found a photo of when you got convicted for murdering a man, you can't hide then, every thing from your past would come right back and shove you in the back.

It's memories. The only reason photo's are still present in the 21st society is because people can let go of their past, their history, the things they did when they were young, how they looked when they were 18, how skinny/fat they were and how they wish they were still at that point in their life, or it could be a constant reminder of our family, friends and the fact that people make mistakes - and nobody ever wants to go back to some mistakes. I know that if i got my way i wouldn't be where i am, i would be in quite a few of my pictures living the life i love with the ones i love. But life can't be perfect so we will just have to live with that, won't we.

                                                                                                         Maddy x

Depression

Depression, easy to say but hard to overcome. You never know when it will hit you, never know how it feels until you've got it. Don't under-estimate the power of this mental illness. It strikes the young and old, the healthy and the unhealthy, rich and poor. It does not discriminate. Yet, people throw it around in eveyday life, saying things like "I'm so depressed, i don't think he loves me anymore" they see a sad movie and say "that movie has just made me depressed". But do they know how it feels? Have they experienced it for themselves and know the feeling of wanting to kill yourself every day just because you are't happy with one aspect of your life and everything else seems to crumble around you and nothing ever goes right? Most don't. Theres an old saying that says 'nothing is so bad you can't talk about it'. Well once again i don't agree with this, people can bottle things up in their heads and bodies and never want to let the demons escape their scratched dry lips for the fear of someone treating them differently like they can't handle things by themselves. They may be too afraid of talking about their problems because everyone sees them as the smiling shoulder to cry on, the one who's always there for help and advice, the one everyone can count on for support. They don't want others to then see them as someone who has problems, who can't handle the way they think and the way their thoughts are etched in the gaze the have almost constantly. No. They can't tell anyone because once someone knows your secret they have that expression on their face that says they think your a mad man, your a liar, your anything but depressed because they are the ones still smiling after their family has been lost and their lives blown into a million pieces. So i would like to just mention to everyone reading this that next time you see the 'girl next door', 'happy father of 3' or even the local hermit, ask if they are okay, ask how they are feeling and how their lives are going, and even if they don't want to say anything to you then, say to them they can trust you and you are there whenever they need help with anything - and mean it!
                                                                                      Maddy x

Sleepovers

So.. tonight my view on sleepovers! Okay so this isn't going to be as inspirational as my previous blogs, so i'm sorry but i want some FUN!. Sleepovers:  spent with awesome friends(emily, theee awweesssooommmeeeessssttttttt!!!!!!) who push you to your limits and make you do crazy things at 8 at night.. (hmm, maybe only rebel for me..) music pumped, poses ready, D n M's on the go. Never wondering what to do next more like, why are we doing this?? <3 Home alone, and i have orders from the 'rents to clean the house! what is this! I thought i lived in a free country, - obviously not.. -. Oh well, still going to be funn with the best of the best. Starting with our nerd glasses attached to our heads and ending with the phone to our ears putting on a dodgy accent and claiming to be from telstra and other various million dollar companies. Movies here we come! bring it!

                                                                                 Maddy x (and Emily xox)

World Travel

When I'm 21 i want to do a Round the World Trip (RTW) and i want to go with the people i love to the places i adore. I know so many other 16 year olds say this then end up not going through with it because they don't have the money, because they think something bad will happen when they are away. Well, i'm serious about this one. In my head and my diary i have already started planning the trip, i am looking at expenses of air tickets, food, accomodation, places i HAVE to see in order for it to be just like my dreams. I am saving already and it's still another 5-6 years away. I have made my bucketlist of places to go and things to see. I have spoken to people who are doing it or have done it. The truth is i have the travelling bug. Hopefully by the time i'm 17/18 i would have travelled my birth country twice, so i won't need to do that again, (see, i'm already saving money by getting my parents to pay for that one ;-)  I was watching a youtube video the other week just randomly - i didn't even kow what it was about- when i came across this:

"For my part, I trravel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travels sake. The great affair is to move." -Robert Louis stevenson

That was on Team Farang Tour - The Temple, and while i loved seeing what they did at the temple, my mind couldn't stop thinking about that quote. It described me. Who I am, what I'm about. So thats what started all my thinking, i started looking up tips on RTW travel,  how to save money, how to make the most f your trip, where to get jobs, what visa's and passports and everthing else that you'll need. But really, what goes to plan? i know my life hasn't so far.. otherwise i'd be rich and celebrating my 21st at Antartica. I would have already been to 50 countries and seen 20 of the world wonders. I need a break. Everyone has to stop telling me that i won't be able to do it because i am too young and inexperienced. They need to listen, understand and watch me, just watch me. So while they are at home in a tiny villiage, living in a 2 bedroom house feeding 7 kids with 4 jobs, they can think "Wow, Maddy has done some amazing stuff with her life, i can't believe i ever doubted her". So I am going to pay attention to school, i am going to keep dreaming even when people put me down and i am going to enjoy the life while i still have it!

Dream big, enjoy life and you will rake in the benifits of being alive today.

                                                                                                                Maddy x

                                                      

First Blog 2012

Well this is my first blog for 2012. I am Maddy and am still only young, but trust me my dreams are big (and i recon i think too much)! I was reading a "1000 things to do before you die" bucket list last night and there was a quote by Jane Fonda. It goes something like this;

"I thought to myself, well if thats the case and if what i'm scared of isn't death but getting to the end with regrets, then i've got to figure out what would be the things i would regret when i got to the last act if i hadn't done nor achieved them by then. And they were; having an intimate relationship and having made a difference."

Well i've got a few points in this quote that i relate to. First of all, the realisation that, like Ms Fonda, my greatest fear wasn't death it's self but dying with regrets. Secondly, having made a difference.. because how hard is it really to make a difference? It could be something so small such as sponsoring a child or teaching a few basic phrases of english to someone illiterate, but then again it could be finding a cure for cancer or curing someone of a disability such as being blind. And it is these people who make a difference that really inspire me and whom i aspire to be like. If there were more people like this, i believe the world would be a better place with less hate and more peace. Of course i can't force people to make a change so i am just going to try make a small change in my self to make me a better person and hopefully lead by example. This quote actually helped me overcome my fear of "death" of which i was quite afraid of. Now i just have to make that bucketlist and start crossing things off to make sure i have no regrets when the last straw is drawn.
                                                                                                               Maddy.